salvo`s .

oooomg . de FIRST day of access program was SO boringg okay .
i realli cud`ve fallen asleeep but it`d b too embarrassing if i fell asleep to deeply :P

so yea . it started with me going to de wrong group :P
cuz you seeee .. we hav camp activity group . and access program group .
camp one was F . and access prog group was D .
and i SOMEHOW remembered F onlii .
so i went to de theatrette wen i was supposed to go to some other class .
lolls . ohwels . i slept a lil later den i usualli do .
so yeaaa . my excuse ; not enuff sleeep . thus , the EXTRA blurness :p

so basically de salvation army was jus gonna speakk about diff stuffs .
but de speaker for my original group was soooooo boring .
she neeeeds to learn how to public speak maan .
so yeaa . 1st was .. juvenile justice . den it was family violence . which was quite interestingg i suppose .
dey showed us a dvd abt how dis grl got BASHED by her boifren who LOVED her he was gonna commit suicide wen she wanted to break up b4 .
fuuuck . and i don`t mean punch a couple of times or whatever .
he smashed her face in to a metal bench in de park SEVERAL times .
stepped on her face . kicked her head . punched it .
and wen a passerby saw her . she couldn`t even identify whehter she was a grl or guy .
WAT DE FUUUCK weiiiiiiiiiiiii .
den dey showed how she looked like in de hosp .
oooomgosh . her face was like . as big as a basketball okay .
apparetly de docs said her skull where she got bashed on de metal bench was like , jelly .
and her jaw broke . and it was apparently very weird lookin .
she was unconscious for like . 3 weeks .
and had to learn how to speak and walk ALL OVER agaiiin .
fuck weii . i feel so sorry for herr .

de `signs` apparently were dat .. he screamed at her like . in publiic . calling her a stupid bitch n shyte . if my boifren were to EVER do dat to me , he probabli won`t but IF he does anyway , i don`t fucking care if he`ll suicide after i kick his sorrry ass outta my life . lols
and de frens also noticed dat he was standing between her and de frens .
dis is pretty common in relationshipss actualli . i had a couple of boifrens who actualli said
` if you wanna go out with your frens , den what am i as your boifren here for ? `
hellooo . you want your guy nights . i hav my grl nights weii . or outings for a fact . it doesn`t mean you hav to b with me day and night WHEREVER i go . obviously most of time we`d b together . but sometiems i wanna spend time with my own grlfrens .
and yeaa . over possesive-ness is turn off for me . and i assume most ppl . lols .
aaand um . she had to ask for permission frm her boifren : S
wel i don`t mind doing dat up til a certain stage . not for ridiculous shyte . yeaap .

so yeaaa . den it was recess . and we had dis poverty game -____-
where a piece of paper was our `life` . and we had to make a collage with our life .
showing de meaning of our life .. and we had to buy material with de `money` we were given .
i got 3 miserable dollars . thank god we all shared and bought 2 mags and glue and scissors and we were set :D
pink cocktaaails :P

okay anyways . yeaa . dat was over . lunch . and we had a talk abt homelessness
ooomg . dat was de one in de theatrette .
and it was SOOO boring . i was soo sleeeepy -___-

had lasagne for dinnerr . yuum . ashleigh`s birthday dinner since i`l b away on hers which is tmr .
blah . after that paacked stuff for camp .
cramps are killliiiing me . arghh . which is affecting my back tooo .
fuck periods weiii .
how come guys don`t hav it -___-
gahh .

anyways . i`m gonna hav an earlii night so i can wake up earlii tmr man .
hope ya`ll hav a goood weeek ! :D

i`l b back on friiday . woooohhooo . and gonna see rhemaaaa !
rhema ; hav a goood flight ! and remember , if ya neeed anythin you can cal my housee and talk to my mum lahh . ahha . see you friday darlliiin . mwaaaa `

i carry your heart , i carry it in my heart .

* excuse the bitchyness for today . it`s pms duude . yes , i CAN use dat as an excuse . mfftts *


periodss = SUCK .

stupiid periods . i hate it so much right now .
OF ALL times to get it . i got it on fridaaay .
and WHEN is de camp ? tuesday .
fucking good timingg .
i sweaar if dey come out with some formula to control de timing of periods i`d de fucking 1st one to get it okaay .
blah .

okaay . so camp is comiing up ya`ll .
2 days timeee .
which is de daaaay ? * drum roooollls *
RHEMA`S comiiing ! :D :D :D
excuse my lameness but i can`t hide my excitement :P
buuuut . yes , dere`s a fucking BUT . i`l b in camp aaaalll de way til friday . so i can probabli onli see her on mayB friday . or saturdayy . how sucky is daat weiiih . pfftss .
ohwels . AND dis idiotic skoool of mine . HAPPENS to hav some ACCESS program whcih of course has to b marked on our reports . !##$*($#%&@)#*@#%&@($%&#@*%&
so yea . i can`t friggin wag de waste of time at skoool .
soooooooooo . basically i can onli see her after skool and on weekends . I NOE . shytiness to de fucking max . fuckheads .

yesterdayy was ashleigh`s birthday in McDonald`s . i realised maccers can reallireallirealli b boring if you`ve got nothing to eat . yeaaa . i had to discover dat yesterdayy -___-
it was pretty entertaining loookin at de kids and stuff ; dere were 20 kids man .
i ALSO discovered , i`d never ever ever ever b a kindergarten teacher . cuz i`d probabli lose it . OR a primary skoool teacher too . same difference lah . de year 1 til 4 wud b a handful .
i DON`T think i`d wanna handle ppl my age either :P

for obvious reasons xD

if i were to ever work with kids . it`ll b babies . i love babies . i lovelovelove dem .
but i can onli love em up to a certain age . probabli 3 or 4 or 5 .
after dat , dey`re annoyiing .
some are real cute tho . but some are just , annoying .
yeaa i noe . HOW am i gonna deal wen i hav my own children ?
lols . i think dey`d b different . i`d love dem to bits i`l b one of em bitchy mothers (:
mm hmm . dats a plaan :D

so anyways . i got up at abouttt ..... 9 something . yeaa i`ve been waking up REALLI earli these days . no bloody idea why . i`m stil realli tired tho . just waking up at the oddest timess . lolls
came online and talked to qeeem . haha
he`s so funnyy in a crazy wayy .
chicken lips are fun to eat . tsk . i noe how weird dat sounds btw .
anyways . after lunch went get reaady to go . and went to maccers at abt 3 i tinnk .
bladiblabla .
came home . dinner. open prezzies .
she got FOUR dolls okay . loooaadsa prezzies . very nice ones tooo
haha . ma and i were trying to judge whether de boys gav good presents and were husband materiall :D which irritated ash a bit i tink :p
i actualli liked half de stuff she got . lollss .
but ANYWAYS . de nex morningg . i saw her playing with her bratz doll ; KUNG FU STYLE .
and she even included SOUND effects . haaaiiyyyaaawaachaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !
and no , i`m not exaggeratingg duude . lols .
it was probably bbecause we watched enter the dragon with BRUCE LEE in it .
omgg . it was sooo boring i fell asleeep halfway through :P
but he`s quite goood lookin ! at SOME angles .

so anyways . later on dat day went to the glen with jenny to `camp shoop` .
didn`t do much really . got some more faciall stuff .
a beanie , gloves and a scarff .

i look so much like a bank robber with all of it on -___-
so yeaaa . had viet for dinner again which was yuum .
and it`s getting SO colldddd * brrrr *
lolss .

blah . and headaches are . pfftts . i hope i`l survive caaamp : S

the lovelypost by rhema :D

* this post isn`t done by me , but i happen to LOVE wat it`s about (: bigbigbig credits to rhema for coming up with all dis to saay . haha . i reaally agreee with wat she`s saiid and can`t help but to repost it on mine ! :D enjoy *

you realize that it's less important to have more friends but more important to have real ones



shows you EXACTLY how RETARDEDLY RETARDED one can be .
popularity?
right . affects every single cell in your pathetic body doesnt it ?


you`re so quick to judge .
so quick to point fingers .
so QUICK to turn on the water works and cry your way through EVERYTHING .


you`ve labeled your WHOLE lifestyle .
changed the way you act and dress .
take a GOOD look in the mirror babe ,
who the hell are you trying to impress?
you always USE people to get what you need
you take advantage of others to satisfy your OWN greed .


It`s getting somewhat ANNOYING
how desperate some people are to gain acceptance from older people .
WHO CARES if some people dont like you . For chrissake .
you have friends that CARE for you . whats the bloody point ?
i used to care about what people said . what people thought .
until i realised . its a WASTE of time .
everywhere you go . EVERYONE has something to say.


so ? what ? waste our time crying over something some low life said .
correction ; something some low life who DOESNT know US said . and ONLY judging us by rumours / hearsay .


come on . sooner or later ; you`re gonna HAVE to deal .
words hurt . yes they do . but its a CHOICE to take them seriously or NOT .
how do YOU deal instead ?
becoming this popular hungry person . doing stupid things . making an ass outta yourself .
just to what ? make sure pple like you ?


real nice .

p/s : stop repeating quotes making it loook like you`re something like `that` . you`re jus as boringly normal as the stupid ditzy people who sees popularity as a way of life who`s dying to show the world how different you are . take some word of advice . show it to yourself before you show the whole darn world and stop making a fucktard outta yourself (:

and this life sentence that i`m serving , i admit that i`m every bit deserving ..

I`ve given up on giving up slowly,
I`m blending in so you won`t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I`ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I`ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I`ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there`s no way in knowing where to go, promise I`m going because
I gotta get outta here
I`m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I`m begging You, I`m begging You, I`m begging You to be my escape.

I`m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I`ve failed and I`m ready to be shown how
He`s told me the way and I`m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I`m serving
I admit that I`m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I`ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I`ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I`ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there`s no way in knowing where to go, promise I`m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I`m afraid that this complacency is something I can`t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I`m begging You, I`m begging You, I`m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I`ve made
And all I`m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can`t ask You to give what You already gave

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You

i`d give you everything i have ; the good , the bad .

Sundaaaaaay .
woke up pretty earlii . despite de fact i was like a blooody zombiiee . i couldn`t sleeep anymore cuz mum woke me up to ask whether i wanted to follow em to albert park lake to ... chill . i guess . and it was 12 ... blaah . i was up de night before talkin to don i tinkk ? haha .
so yeaah . stayed up til abt 5 . it`s beeen so long since i stayed up dat laate .
gettin used to de `skoool night` kinda thiiing . yeaapp :D
but anyways . everyone else leftt . i finaally rolled outta bed abt fortyfive laterr .
came onliine . yadayadayada . and deeen . jenny came on n asked me whether i was FREE .
well of course i was . i never hav stuff to do . lolls .
we decided to go sswwwimmin togetha ! it`s beeen quite awhile since i last went swimming . de last was probably at a beach anyway . with FAMILY .
so yaaah . de ppl came home . askedd mum . n yeaap . ashhie wanted to go swimming tooo . so ... everyone went . i got dere . met up with her . n ciao`d to some warmed up poool .
it was so goood . haha . being such a friggin cold daay . yeapp .
a warm poool with a coupla hotties to eye .
was juuuss wat we needed xD
n den we went for viett .
so goood . i always sorta likedd viettnamese foood . tho i kinda onli stick to a certain dishh . haha .
beef slices or chicken slices noodles .
i sweaar dey`re soup rocks asss .
but yeaaah . it was so fucking coldd . gah .
i cudn`t waiit to get homee .

mondaay
nth much lah . went over to jenny`s to do our science projectt .
ended up cam whoringg tho :P ohhwels . here are a few picciess :D


of course dere was a random one of me ................... dunno why not looking -____-

don`t we jus loook like de grls nex dooooor (:

shaddiiies :D

i`ve no idea wat pose dis was supposed to b . it was all spontaneous . i sweaaar . hahah .

de mirror`s a very .. interestingg subject .

kissiekissiemwamwa ` xD
so yeaaah . dat was monday :D

tuesdayy
went to ......... the glen . saw quite a number or ppl dereee . danieka n de gangg . jasonn and all de asian guys . lols . ally . tara n her peeps oso lah .
got dereee . talktalktalkcamwhoretalktalk . met up with more ppl .
kanna , jenny , mel , nancie , fiona , sharon , jade , alex and locki . siu cudn`t make itt ...
ohwelss . went to watch scary movie fourr . which is another spooof movie . boringgnesss .
i`d rather watch she`s de man , honestly . haha .
i`ve got a whoooole list of movies i wanna watchh ! friggin aussie doesn`t hav pasar malam dvds to get for 10 bucks at most 15 . haha . screwww laah .
thankfullii , rhema will b bringiin my supply of `malaysia` wen she comes over (:
rhem ; you`re my lifesaver i tel youu . haha
my cravingss for nicotine duringg periods wud b satisfieedd .
need for catchiin up on de goss . eventho i`m gettin some now . i`m suure dre`s more we can bitch abt :D
haha . aaand . all de fuuun i`m missiin in malaysiiaa . haha . you`l b heree to stooryy me ya ?
lols ! dvdsdvdsdvds :D
wel anyways . after movie was jus walking aroundd . lunch . walkwalkwalk . shopshopshop .
teehee .

wednesdaayy
skoool . nuff` saiid .

todaaay .
1st double . mathh -_____-
okay can`t say i hate it dat much noww . cuz we`re doiing algebraic expressions and believe it or not . i like dis topic . it`s pretty easyy . dats probably why . haha .
wat i can`t stand is fucking probability . muthafuckin shyteful lousy stuupid mindless useless friggin topicc . @#@$!#!#@%$#^*^&%$^#@#@
okay anyways . yeah . so now its algebra and i like it :D

... recceeeessss ...
nex double . science .
went to de library to finish up de projectt . handed it in .
.. lunchh ..
library to reaad my book i`m suppoesd to do de oral speech on for englishh :S
it`s so annoyiing . dis 3 day weeek is so fuckin hecticc . i never did my projects n assignments las timmee .n now i`m dyinng to get it all done by it`s deadline .
i`m so fuckking screweedd okay . big time . de bloody oral presentation is tomorrow .
and i don`t even noe wat book i`m doing it on -___-
i`ve to noe wat i`m gonna do , get de whole speech done , memorise it , practice it , make sure i get it all right ; before 4th period tmr .
so telll me .l am i fucked or am i fucked .
friggin hell .
ahh . i dunno wat i`m doiing bloggin now . -___-
i can`t stick to jus doiing my english . gahhhh .
gonna tryy to get back to it nw .

till denn , lovess . s2 *

lliike my new layout ? lols .
ohwels . today`s de 1st day of skoool after de 4 day weekend man .
and for once . my entire weekend was usedd on somethin OTHER den ...
waking up at noon . having lunch and staring at de screeen for de rest of de friggin day .
uh hup :D some sorta achievement i guess . lols .

anywaysss . so .

saturdaay
woke up at abt 9 30 am . got reaadyy and left for de train station with kingsley at 11 am .
arrived at de city . met up with kingsley`s collegues and walked to de stadium which was .. pretty close . went up to de corporate suite . YES corporate suitee . hahah . i`m sorry for being so overly unneccessarily excitedd . but a FIRST time of going to a football match . n attendin it in a corporate suiite . i cud get used to it . EASILY . hahah
wel anyways .. we were in de room at abt . 12 45 . had drinks n dips . i dunno whyy i realli didn`t feel like wine . so all i drank was coke .
yess . coke . hahaha . wel i dun like beer . or any other gasssyy drink sides coke . so yeaap
i tink i drank llike . 3 or 4 glasses :P
de game started at liike .. 2 10 pm i tinnkk . but dere was all de intro n shytes . which was pretty coool . de players all looked so .. macho . * siggh *
haaha .
soo .. de game was broken up into quarters . evry 30 minutes i thinkk .
AND . i didn`t noe ANY rules whatsoever , mind you .
so i was practically jus gonna watch de game not knowing a sngle thing happeninn :P
aaand . everyone else tooo . ahah
i noe weii . wadefuckk . de footie thing was supposed to b such a big thing here . n kingsley n evreyone else iddn`t noe shytes . hahah .
but of coursee .... i learntt a thing or two deree .
judging by de booo`ing and cheering lah . and one of de people dere used to b an ... umpire ? i dunno how de hell it`s spelt . but it`s like . some .. reffeeereee kinda thing la if i`m not mistaken . so he sorta explained some stuff for us . teehee .
tho i must say . as someone who hates watchin football on tv .
it was pretty exciting being deree watching it . hahaha .
oh oh . n dey don`t hav dat .. goal thingg . like our malaysian footie .. it`s like .. a box . with a net to catch de ball right ... but dis one . it`s ... four poles . haha . so you can like . kick de ball as high as you want . n if it goes thru . it`s stil considered a goal . so you don`t need a ... wats it called . goal keeper ? de person who tries to prevent de ball frm masuking de goall lah . hahah .
okay i might b speakin gibberish to some of ya`ll . i`l jus stop abt it dere
anyways . de score was .. 14.8 and 12.6 i tink . saints won ! woohoo . i was barracking for em cuz i liked deir name . teehee . i noe i noe . not de right way . but i haven`t exactly seeen all teams play . i`d doubt i`d b able to tell which was good anyway . so i`l jus de as grlie as i like . n spot de team with de cutest players and i`l barrack for em den :D
for now .. its st. kilda . ooh yeaaa . de match was between de saints and de western bulldogs .
hahaha . saints is wel .. st. kilda . and westeern bulldogs are western australiaa .
mm hmm !

okay anywaays . i`ve gtg sleeep now . skoool tmr . blaahs .
i`l b back tmr to updateee agaiiin :D

S2 ; niiic - *
* yes rhemaa . dat stupid thiing . LOLS .